My prospective memory (remembering to perform a planned action or intention at the appropriate time) is properly awful. It completely and utterly sucks. This is why I write extensive lists, about everything, in all areas of my life. On the surface I may seem deceptively good at doing my usual routines in the usual context, but don’t be fooled – change the context and it all falls apart.
Every day when I’m in my car, driving to or from work, I think to myself, “I’m really bored with this CD, I should put a different one in my bag for tomorrow”. I fully intend to perform this action as soon as I reach home. But once I get inside the house, I just do the normal things that I do when I’m get home, which does not currently include picking out CDs. So the next time I’m in the car, I’ll get annoyed with myself because I’m still listening to the same boring CD. And so it continues, every damn day. Why can’t I remember to pick out a CD?
When we go out with the children in the car at the weekends, I only ever have tissues on me by chance (for example if I’ve needed a tissue that day and it happens to be in my bag). This is despite the fact that we need a tissue every time because one or other of the children is always snotty. So why can’t I check that I have a tissue with me each week, or better still, keep a packet of tissues in the car?
It’s the same problem. It is as if my brain can’t transfer this type of knowledge across situations, and unless I’m prompted by something or someone else, I won’t recall what I wanted to do or even that there was something that I wanted to do. It has got to the point now where I think I need to start writing myself a note in one situation, and holding it in my hand as I go into the next (if I put it in my bag I won’t read it until I’m in the first situation again, which is not where I need it). This way I will be forced to read the instructions inside the house, bringing the conscious awareness and the knowledge along with it.
Perhaps this should be my next experiment. And who knows, by writing this blog it may even raise my own awareness of the issue and I’ll start remembering to do things.
PS Whilst writing this, I have selected a CD for tomorrow and it is in my bag – hurrah, but still no tissues – boo!
© Catastraspie, 2012.