Author Archives: catastraspie

It never hurts any less, it just gets longer ago

It’s two years today since my second pregnancy loss. It’s two years today since the worst day of my life. It’s two years today since I went for the scan that changed everything. It’s two years today since I found … Continue reading

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On the twelfth day of Christmas

On the twelfth day of Christmas my baby gave to me… twelve gummy smiles On the eleventh day of Christmas my baby gave to me… eleven shrieks of laughter On the tenth day of Christmas my baby gave to me… … Continue reading

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Out of place

Here we go again.  Back in the place where they torture hope. Waiting for my numbers in some perverse kind of lottery. Fate written in a computer print-out, a lab report, a post it. Shrodinger’s baby, neither dead nor alive … Continue reading

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Overestimating understanding… (or not)

A recent article in the British Psychological Society’s Research Digest got me thinking.  It’s called, “Most of us are overconfident about how much we understand things – this simple intervention can help” – and it describes a strategy to give … Continue reading

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Observations on Asperger’s at work

I’ve noticed that in my current and previous job (in admin) tasks that I have actively sought out, enjoyed and done well at, are often tasks that others are more than happy to pass on to me.  Slightly repetitive jobs, … Continue reading

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The road to hell is paved with good intentions

I’m very fond of coffee.  In particular I am very fond of strong coffee from a well-known chain of coffee shops that sprinkle a chocolate bean logo on the foam.  When we go into town with my stepchildren, I consider … Continue reading

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No, I really *really* can’t get the train…

I don’t often bother talking to people about my sensory issues and my intolerance for daily living, After all, everybody at some point feels too hot, or too cold.  Everybody feels pain.  Most people have a food they don’t like, … Continue reading

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