Author Archives: catastraspie

It never hurts any less, it just gets longer ago

Posted on 20 March, 2019 by catastraspie

It’s two years today since my second pregnancy loss. It’s two years today since the worst day of my life. It’s two years today since I went for the scan that changed everything. It’s two years today since I found … Continue reading →

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On the twelfth day of Christmas

Posted on 28 December, 2018 by catastraspie

On the twelfth day of Christmas my baby gave to me… twelve gummy smiles On the eleventh day of Christmas my baby gave to me… eleven shrieks of laughter On the tenth day of Christmas my baby gave to me… … Continue reading →

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Out of place

Posted on 7 February, 2017 by catastraspie

Here we go again.  Back in the place where they torture hope. Waiting for my numbers in some perverse kind of lottery. Fate written in a computer print-out, a lab report, a post it. Shrodinger’s baby, neither dead nor alive … Continue reading →

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Overestimating understanding… (or not)

Posted on 7 April, 2016 by catastraspie

A recent article in the British Psychological Society’s Research Digest got me thinking.  It’s called, “Most of us are overconfident about how much we understand things – this simple intervention can help” – and it describes a strategy to give … Continue reading →

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Observations on Asperger’s at work

Posted on 20 October, 2015 by catastraspie

I’ve noticed that in my current and previous job (in admin) tasks that I have actively sought out, enjoyed and done well at, are often tasks that others are more than happy to pass on to me.  Slightly repetitive jobs, … Continue reading →

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The road to hell is paved with good intentions

Posted on 8 February, 2015 by catastraspie

I’m very fond of coffee.  In particular I am very fond of strong coffee from a well-known chain of coffee shops that sprinkle a chocolate bean logo on the foam.  When we go into town with my stepchildren, I consider … Continue reading →

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No, I really *really* can’t get the train…

Posted on 15 October, 2014 by catastraspie

I don’t often bother talking to people about my sensory issues and my intolerance for daily living, After all, everybody at some point feels too hot, or too cold.  Everybody feels pain.  Most people have a food they don’t like, … Continue reading →

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2013 in review

Posted on 21 January, 2014 by catastraspie

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog. Here’s an excerpt: The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 11,000 times in 2013. If it were a … Continue reading →

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The Xmas Grinch… Asperger’s at Christmas

Posted on 9 December, 2013 by catastraspie

My partner lovingly calls me the Xmas Grinch, because each year I am seemingly reluctant to get in the spirit of things.  It got worse the Xmas I was writing up my PhD, when I had a deadline of 22 … Continue reading →

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You know when… it’s time to move on.

Posted on 30 September, 2013 by catastraspie

You know when you’re so angry with someone you want to rip their face off, but you know you won’t because you never want to see them again? You know when there are so many things to say and people … Continue reading →

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