Category Archives: Feelings

It never hurts any less, it just gets longer ago

Posted on 20 March, 2019 by catastraspie

It’s two years today since my second pregnancy loss. It’s two years today since the worst day of my life. It’s two years today since I went for the scan that changed everything. It’s two years today since I found … Continue reading →

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Out of place

Posted on 7 February, 2017 by catastraspie

Here we go again.  Back in the place where they torture hope. Waiting for my numbers in some perverse kind of lottery. Fate written in a computer print-out, a lab report, a post it. Shrodinger’s baby, neither dead nor alive … Continue reading →

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The road to hell is paved with good intentions

Posted on 8 February, 2015 by catastraspie

I’m very fond of coffee.  In particular I am very fond of strong coffee from a well-known chain of coffee shops that sprinkle a chocolate bean logo on the foam.  When we go into town with my stepchildren, I consider … Continue reading →

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No, I really *really* can’t get the train…

Posted on 15 October, 2014 by catastraspie

I don’t often bother talking to people about my sensory issues and my intolerance for daily living, After all, everybody at some point feels too hot, or too cold.  Everybody feels pain.  Most people have a food they don’t like, … Continue reading →

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You know when… it’s time to move on.

Posted on 30 September, 2013 by catastraspie

You know when you’re so angry with someone you want to rip their face off, but you know you won’t because you never want to see them again? You know when there are so many things to say and people … Continue reading →

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Superpower envy!

Posted on 4 September, 2013 by catastraspie

Normally when I think about Aspies and being Aspie, I think of us as the ones with superpowers – being logical, being exact, being effortlessly quirky. However, this week I learned about a neurotypical (NT) superpower that made me green … Continue reading →

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Compatibility

Posted on 20 June, 2013 by catastraspie

I’ve been told my partner and I aren’t an obvious match.  We’ve even joked about it ourselves.  He used to say that we were opposite ends of the spectrum, but since he has also now been diagnosed as Aspie, that … Continue reading →

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Why I’m too scared to stop my contraceptive…

Posted on 20 May, 2013 by catastraspie

If the Too Much Information fairy gives you the ‘icks‘, this might not be the post for you.  If you’re interested in mental health, maybe give it a go. I’m in my mid-thirties and (to my mother’s horror) have not … Continue reading →

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Stop making value judgements about empathy, please.

Posted on 3 May, 2013 by catastraspie

I get really uncomfortable when people discuss “empathy” in relation to Asperger’s, and sometimes I get a bit annoyed.  Ok, so I might not intuitively know how you are feeling or what you need, but I care deeply about your … Continue reading →

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Giving my all when it doesn’t feel like enough

Posted on 7 March, 2013 by catastraspie

I am always trying my best, and I always try to please everyone, and I always try to be as good and fair as possible.  That’s why I don’t take criticism well, because I am trying my absolute hardest already … Continue reading →

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